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Over coming Myself

I keep finding myself starting over again. Re-writing over and over again, trying to find my voice and that's fine but it can also be a pain in the behind. I just feel like I have left so much unsaid and also had somethings that needed to be put into words. Now I am not going to lie I am a young woman who deals with depression, borderline personality disorder among other things which for me seems to mean that getting up out of bed, getting dressed, and doing simple things are a task. I am constantly criticizing my every move and thought. It also means that I am by far my own enemy. I usually go between trying to figure out what I want or how I want to go about it. I have the struggle that I don't like people getting close to me or people trying to figure me out because that means they have a chance to figure out my vulnerabilities. I constantly find myself feeling people talking about me and eye's watching me and I don't like being noticed me because of the pressure it puts  on me. I am sure I am not the only one who deals with this. I figured I would write this to see if there was anything I could do to help others and to let them know that they are not alone. I don't like people knowing that there is something wrong with me. I don't like admitting that sometimes I feel like I am drowning in my own breathe and no one can save me from myself.  So to be honest with you this is my first step in trying to over come myself. You are more than welcome to join me in my Journey
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