Miss Aries Elise

So I have two and a half hours until I board the train to my life. I am so very excited and I know this is the beginning to doing better for myself. I know that doing this will bring me nothing but the best in life and I also know that I am serious when I say that this year is going to change so much for me and all in a positive way. All I know is it a whole new city, completely different surroundings and now all I got to do is make new friends and then plan on going from there. I know this will be a completely positive experience for me and who knows what will happen next? Just know to be ready you know what is going on next

So today is the day that I am getting a one way ticket to my next location which is going to be a surprise when I land there and when I do I plan to post pics. I can't wait to show you guys where it is and I am sure you are going to love it as much as I do. I leave today and I am supposed to land on Wednesday so to be honest it is a 40 hour trip but it is well worth it for me. I plan to start my whole life over there and I know a new environment is exactly what I need. That and a whole fresh start so I can figure out who I am and what I want to be in life. I think self discovery will be good for me and also a better support system. I think this is going to be exciting and something daring and something new. We shall see what Happens. Either way I will keep you posted

So here I am in the hotel room because I left my ex due to him being abusive and very controlling. I sent him to the wind and am now starting to figure things out like what I want to do with my life. To be honest I am thinking about writing a book, working on meditation, doing some Pi-yo and keeping this blog going and maybe selling make-up because I absolutely love make up and I think it would be great for me. I really can't wait to see where life takes me as I feel it is going to get better sooner than later. I am also working on figuring out how I want to approach things and who I want to be. I think I am going to start focusing on doing way better and motivating me to keep my head up. I don't know what I thinking before but now that I am not walking on egg shells so to speak I am thinking so much clearer. I am now a motivated force with thoughts and Idea's of my own and I am loving every minute of the start of my transformation. I think once I finish my move I am devot...

I keep finding myself starting over again. Re-writing over and over again, trying to find my voice and that's fine but it can also be a pain in the behind. I just feel like I have left so much unsaid and also had somethings that needed to be put into words. Now I am not going to lie I am a young woman who deals with depression, borderline personality disorder among other things which for me seems to mean that getting up out of bed, getting dressed, and doing simple things are a task. I am constantly criticizing my every move and thought. It also means that I am by far my own enemy. I usually go between trying to figure out what I want or how I want to go about it. I have the struggle that I don't like people getting close to me or people trying to figure me out because that means they have a chance to figure out my vulnerabilities. I constantly find myself feeling people talking about me and eye's watching me and I don't like being noticed me because of the pressure it ...